You all may be wondering if I fell off the face of the Earth. If you follow me on Snap Chat or any of my other media channels you would know I still live.
Where have I been ?
No one ever really knows how one will react in a stressful, difficult time in their life. I tend to stop doing the very thing that I love the most, the very thing that makes me feel the very best possible way that I could ever feel about myself. I retreat into the safety of my quietness. I stop doing anything artistic and save every bit of energy to deal with an emotion in which I am unfamiliar. Is this the right reaction? Most likely not, but it is my reaction. I am a very lucky girl to have amazing family and extraordinary friends to rely on. I know each of you have had to weather a very difficult storm at one time or another, maybe even two or three. What I have experienced about these difficult moments in my life is that I learn more about the inner part of me and how strong I am. Another thing about me is that no one will ever know that I am going though something so unbearable, not unless you are in my closest circle. I like it that way. I really do not like too much outside influence on how I should be dealing with a very private, emotional, situation, oh and let me tell you everyone has a strong opinion on what you should do and how you should deal with it.
Sometimes when tragedy hits it takes your body months to react because you are running strictly on adrenaline. Survival mode. We have all been there. Then one day you wake up and all of your adrenaline is gone, the walls come crashing down on top of you and your holding them up with nothing left. The very core of you is tested. Can I hold it up? Will I die? Am I strong enough? The answer is always YES! I am strong enough!. Yes! I can hold it up! No! I will not Die.!
I have only had three significant times in my life where I have had to really dig deep. I don't know about you but I always see things so clearly after the pain. I really can't share with you the details of what I am talking about. I will let you come to your own conclusion. I will say that pain is pain no matter where is comes from.
If any of you are dealing with a difficult time in your life, you know that your life is forever changed but this could be a new beginning, a chance to look inside and see what you are really made of. A chance to change. A chance to make yourself the very best you. Sometimes all you can do is sit and watch the tragedy unfold. That helpless feeling is almost unbearable. That feeling is the worst part, especially for me because I love to control things. As I sit and write this I see the lesson in all of it is learning to let go. Letting it all go to regain all you lost. We cannot control anyone but ourselves so why not concentrate on the things that deal with just ourselves. Learning to let go and trust. What a concept.
This is the first Post I have done in about two months. It feels really good to be back doing what I love. I am also working on my new Studio/ Office. A place where I can rev up my You Tube Channel with more weekly DIY videos. The beginning of WobiSobi Inc.
I Hope I was not too much of a Debbie Downer. My road to emotional recovery is set into place. I am doing wonderful, and taking each day one day at a time. Trying not to focus to much on the future but to make everyday the very best day that I can.
Just a quick reminder.
Treat each person you see with kindness you never know what kind of struggle they are going through on the inside.
I hope you enjoy this DIY I saw it on Pintrest, of course.
Of course I thought what a great DIY.
Thank you all so much for your endless support and encouragement.
It means the world to me.